i'm an idiot...
[apr 18 2007, 14:01]
... but probably the happiest idiot in the world!
the last couple of days have been absolutely amazing. my world's been turned upside down. and, for once, in a good way.
saturday (or sunday) brought change. taking a chance, taking the plunge and seeing where we end up, that's the result. and we jumped and we are falling, falling through clouds of silver rain.
it makes me focus and forget. i focus on the little things, the details. i forget the big things, the scary changes, the overwhelming tasks at hand. i find myself daydreaming even more than i did before because now i know that dreams can come true and that they sometimes do, even for me.
two years. and then the words i needed to say. two months. and then the words i needed to hear - we'll try, we'll try and see what happens, see where it drives us. and right now, it's driving me insane not to be where i was yesterday, not to do what i did yesterday but concentrate on the pointlessness of work and life with the prospect of a three day wait. three days!
it's the little things i miss when i'm alone. always the little things.
but i know it'll all come back, not because i want it to but because she wants to. and that, my friends, feels better than anything in the world. anything.
charon
the last couple of days have been absolutely amazing. my world's been turned upside down. and, for once, in a good way.
saturday (or sunday) brought change. taking a chance, taking the plunge and seeing where we end up, that's the result. and we jumped and we are falling, falling through clouds of silver rain.
it makes me focus and forget. i focus on the little things, the details. i forget the big things, the scary changes, the overwhelming tasks at hand. i find myself daydreaming even more than i did before because now i know that dreams can come true and that they sometimes do, even for me.
two years. and then the words i needed to say. two months. and then the words i needed to hear - we'll try, we'll try and see what happens, see where it drives us. and right now, it's driving me insane not to be where i was yesterday, not to do what i did yesterday but concentrate on the pointlessness of work and life with the prospect of a three day wait. three days!
it's the little things i miss when i'm alone. always the little things.
but i know it'll all come back, not because i want it to but because she wants to. and that, my friends, feels better than anything in the world. anything.
charon