glob
[mar 02 2007, 09:24]
it's a strange state of mind i'm in right now. it's like...
about two weeks ago, my spirit was broken. again. the shell around me cracked and faltered and was smashed to the ground. and it's not entirely grown back yet.
i'm close to the water's edge right now. i'm sad and depressed and if you poke me, i might just blow up. and you know what? that is exactly the way i felt for the last two years (at least), just that i never let it show.
and now i am, now it's written all over me in shiny neon letters... but it doesn't make a difference.
i wrote in an e-mail during the last week that i had the feeling that we all just kept passing each other by without really noticing or caring for one another. that was not just me talking about her feeling bad, it was me talking about myself.
and now i know it's true. because i experienced it. right now.
and the shell... i don't think i have too much influence on that but i'm thinking whether i should grow it back. because if i do, it will be a lot thicker than it was before. it will have to be. and you won't get through this time.
charon
about two weeks ago, my spirit was broken. again. the shell around me cracked and faltered and was smashed to the ground. and it's not entirely grown back yet.
i'm close to the water's edge right now. i'm sad and depressed and if you poke me, i might just blow up. and you know what? that is exactly the way i felt for the last two years (at least), just that i never let it show.
and now i am, now it's written all over me in shiny neon letters... but it doesn't make a difference.
i wrote in an e-mail during the last week that i had the feeling that we all just kept passing each other by without really noticing or caring for one another. that was not just me talking about her feeling bad, it was me talking about myself.
and now i know it's true. because i experienced it. right now.
and the shell... i don't think i have too much influence on that but i'm thinking whether i should grow it back. because if i do, it will be a lot thicker than it was before. it will have to be. and you won't get through this time.
charon