i'll shut up now. you made it. you made me.
sometimes, no words at all say a lot more than you'd have thought.
sometimes silence is an answer.
sometimes that answer is what you expected, what you knew would come, but not what you wanted.
move on. move on. move on.
everything is relative. this is a green entry, a green day, although it doesn't feel like it, although it feels like nothing at all.
and still my stupid heart gave a jolt when the doorbell rang.

i won't be able to help it, excuse me, perhaps i'm going to stare at you some more from time to time, just to take in all i'm missing out on. you'll find me staring blankly into the darkness.

just friends, that's what your answer would have been, i'm sure of that now, even without asking.

and the stupid thing is that if you answered that other question, that stupid one, the one that nothing and everything depends on, this would have been another day. another evening. another night.

and my eyes wouldn't be watering with understanding but with hope.

it's better this way.
charon

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