rating what's this? [mar 11 2006, 21:27]

signs. signs everywhere. some indicating right, some pointing left. some saying 'hey, handsome, go ahead', some shouting 'what the fuck do you think you're doing'. some... some of all flavours!
get your facts straight, man. get your facts straight.
yeah, i know, it's just that i haven't been there for a long time.
that's a bad excuse. it's just like swimming.
oh, shut up.
yeah, it is. when you fuck up, you're standing there with your bare butt.
fucker.
okay, perhaps it's not like swimming at all. perhaps it's more like...
it's not like anything at all. it's always new, always different. that's what i was trying to tell you.
hm... i think i get it.
so? what now? what should i do? listen to the voice that says 'go' or shut the fuck up and get over it?
you should stop your fucking swearing.
thanks for your help. thank you so very much!
no, come on, i'm really trying to help. there's one thing...
what?
you know, when you're talking to yourself (or writing to yourself for that matter) people often think you're going a bit nuts. so perhaps everything will be much better when you finally stop asking yourself for advi