rating done [feb 28 2005, 21:53]

okay, i'm officially fucked.
i'm sick. i don't want to brag as i know there are people far worse off than me. i'm just (!) coughing as if i had... well, done something incredibly unhealthy (yeah, well, i did, i was in a theater play and joined a small singstar-contest last week... who would've known that 'fallin' is so high...), having a headache and feeling generally a bit wheezy.
and this is for the people who wonder why i love this language so much. try saying wheezy in german without losing the almost acoustic property of the word. ha.
well, yeah, that's the first reason that i'm fucked. the second one is that yesterday there was what could probably have been the most amazing concert i have ever seen. well, admittedly, i have only been to four concerts so far - at least concerts i remember -, one of them being a relatively locally-centered band from cologne that i saw when i was about eight and one was an abba revival band (the fireworks at the end made up for everything) but jimmy eat world played live in cologne, i had tickets, i had been having tickets for months, i had people to go with... but i didn't go.
until the last second i discussed with myself whether i should go or whether i shouldn't. well, the usual side of me won and, well, you know the result.
fucked.
well, there's a radio-concert for all the, er, leftovers (*wink*) tomorrow. and i'm going to reinstall my tv pci-card and record it. at least i'll try.

apart from that, i'm incredibly anti-creative at the moment. there's a presentation due next week and although i almost exactly know what i'm going to tell everyone, i haven't managed to get more than a few scraps actually done. i haven't been writing, i haven't been making music, hell, i haven't even been listening to music and that's a really bad sign.
however, good times gonna come (yeah, aqualung, you're right), at least i hope they are.
see you around.
charon