consumption
[jan 27 2005, 22:08]
i'm currently less productive than i've ever been. i have about half a dozen stories in my head, additions to an unfinished movie script on my hard disk, lots of poetry on my mind... i just can't make myself write all that down. heck, it's even hard to write about it around here.
although this year started off quite nicely and even more creatively (more, indeed, than i had ever hoped for), it's now starting to fall apart.
i'm busy all day long (although it's just school and work and neither ever prevented me from writing) and when i get home i just don't have enough energy anymore to think. i usually just lay down in front of the tv and watch a movie. yes, good movies, really good movies (like ghost in the shell - innocence [with horrible english subtitles]), but still... they don't work anymore. at least not that much.
eternal sunrise was an amazing movie but although i felt that it was just that i couldn't appreciate it as much as, say, big fish. this movie is currently my number one. absolutely. and somehow i feel that nothing i could watch right now could live up to that, however good it may be.
i think i should go on vacation. somewhere. soon. to ireland for example. or scotland. i don't really care as long as it's not hot and as long as it's english. probably alone or with someone who cares. someone who understands. i'll do that. somewhen i'll do that
no, fitting into the constraints or our so-called civilized community is not one of my top-priorities. not really.
and while i'm acquiring gibberish and nonsense, please mark february 22nd in your calendars. it's the day when our new 'play' will have its premiere, derniere, its worst and best performance and - probably - the only one it will ever see. it's not literally a play but more a collection, a collage of everything that makes us human. quite artistically sophisticated, probably quite... strange at first but worth having a look at.
and it's free.
charon
song of the day: straylight run - it's for the best
although this year started off quite nicely and even more creatively (more, indeed, than i had ever hoped for), it's now starting to fall apart.
i'm busy all day long (although it's just school and work and neither ever prevented me from writing) and when i get home i just don't have enough energy anymore to think. i usually just lay down in front of the tv and watch a movie. yes, good movies, really good movies (like ghost in the shell - innocence [with horrible english subtitles]), but still... they don't work anymore. at least not that much.
eternal sunrise was an amazing movie but although i felt that it was just that i couldn't appreciate it as much as, say, big fish. this movie is currently my number one. absolutely. and somehow i feel that nothing i could watch right now could live up to that, however good it may be.
i think i should go on vacation. somewhere. soon. to ireland for example. or scotland. i don't really care as long as it's not hot and as long as it's english. probably alone or with someone who cares. someone who understands. i'll do that. somewhen i'll do that
(and i know just now, as i'm saying it, that i probably never will make it, that probably i'll be stuck here for the rest of my fucking life [and i also feel that swearing is good] and that this isn't even the worst thing. i fear that somewhen i'm going to accept it)
and just be gone. i'll switch off my pc, get some paper and some pens, pack some stuff, get some money and just be gone. for a week. or two. or a month. and when i feel like it, i'll come back.no, fitting into the constraints or our so-called civilized community is not one of my top-priorities. not really.
and while i'm acquiring gibberish and nonsense, please mark february 22nd in your calendars. it's the day when our new 'play' will have its premiere, derniere, its worst and best performance and - probably - the only one it will ever see. it's not literally a play but more a collection, a collage of everything that makes us human. quite artistically sophisticated, probably quite... strange at first but worth having a look at.
and it's free.
charon
song of the day: straylight run - it's for the best