i like the idea of diaries. i love the fact that basically everybody could have one, that every single person can get everything off their minds, even the stuff that is too private, too strange or too corny to tell anyone. i like the mystery that's atttached to it. i like the fact that, if you keep a diary, you can one day give it to a person you really, really trust. as mr. healey said: 'if i was prime minister i'd make it a law that everybody has to keep a diary'.
now, what about that online thing you're reading at the moment? why do i use this instead of a classic diary?
well, for one because it's faster. i can get all the stuff off my mind more quickly (because i type a lot faster than i think write). but that's not all.
it's also the fact that things don't completely go unseen by the world. somewhere, deep inside of the shy and timid me, there's an exhibitionist that's trying to get out. someone who'd like to share his every thought with the world - or even with one other person. with anyone - yeah, he's desperate!
i don't let him out too often and thus i don't write everything into this diary. and that kind of defies the stuff i said above, i know, but it somehow makes sense for me. it's the way a technophile would do it. sorry.
but as grateful as i am for this diary, for this opportunity of shameless self-presentation, i'm grateful for you guys. i don't get a lot of feedback about this (and i never expected, only deep down inside hoped for it) and, well, perhaps i'm just not the type to get feedback but the stuff that i do get, the e-mails and guestbook comments that i recieve tell me that i don't write absolute rubbish. and in a time when everything is so incredibly fucked up, that's an amazing thing to know.
thanks guys.
charon

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