it's a matter of taste
[nov 21 2003, 22:18]
i am sorry, yes, i am. i'm sorry for two things, one of which i won't reveal until the end. you'll see why.
the first thing is the lack of updates. after sitting in front of a computer all day, it's very hard for me to make myself sit down and think.
hm, it seems i can't think freely anymore. at least hardly ever. today was a day i could. tonight, on my usual way home from the inettcafé... somehow the only thing that has hardly changed at all during the last years.
changes? distance? friendship? somehow these just don't mix up too well. i can't believe how much has changed over the last months, how far away many people seem to be now and... well, how many people i haven't seen, talked to or thought about (selfish me) for days!
are you happy to move on? can you be? well, i can't. i'm stuck in my old habits, in my old ways. i'm stuck with the old people (which is, although it may sound different, an amazingly great thing). i'm stuck...
i know i somehow need to let go. i need to stop worrying and just start - whatever! but i've always been so incredibly dependent on other people that it's just so horribly hard...
listening to coldplay while walking through the dark may not be such a good idea. still...
i haven't even written about the new (geekish) cuteness in my life... will do soon. i haven't even written about the current theater stagings... will do soon, too.
stay tuned for more of me in my old life... coming soon.
charon
ps: the second thing i'm sorry about is that this entry is marked green. it's in no way appropriate but approximately 99% of my viewers (yes, you!) wouldn't have read this entry if it wasn't green. sorry.
the first thing is the lack of updates. after sitting in front of a computer all day, it's very hard for me to make myself sit down and think.
hm, it seems i can't think freely anymore. at least hardly ever. today was a day i could. tonight, on my usual way home from the inettcafé... somehow the only thing that has hardly changed at all during the last years.
changes? distance? friendship? somehow these just don't mix up too well. i can't believe how much has changed over the last months, how far away many people seem to be now and... well, how many people i haven't seen, talked to or thought about (selfish me) for days!
are you happy to move on? can you be? well, i can't. i'm stuck in my old habits, in my old ways. i'm stuck with the old people (which is, although it may sound different, an amazingly great thing). i'm stuck...
i know i somehow need to let go. i need to stop worrying and just start - whatever! but i've always been so incredibly dependent on other people that it's just so horribly hard...
listening to coldplay while walking through the dark may not be such a good idea. still...
a warning sign
i missed the good part then I realised
i started looking and the bubble burst
i started looking for excuses
come on in, i've gotta tell you what a state i'm in
i've gotta tell you in my loudest tones
that i started looking for a warning sign
when the truth is
i miss you
yeah the truth is
that i miss you so
you'll find out the rest.i missed the good part then I realised
i started looking and the bubble burst
i started looking for excuses
come on in, i've gotta tell you what a state i'm in
i've gotta tell you in my loudest tones
that i started looking for a warning sign
when the truth is
i miss you
yeah the truth is
that i miss you so
i haven't even written about the new (geekish) cuteness in my life... will do soon. i haven't even written about the current theater stagings... will do soon, too.
stay tuned for more of me in my old life... coming soon.
charon
ps: the second thing i'm sorry about is that this entry is marked green. it's in no way appropriate but approximately 99% of my viewers (yes, you!) wouldn't have read this entry if it wasn't green. sorry.