failed dependencies in life.rpm
[nov 04 2003, 22:53]
i depend on you. i don't know who you are, where you are at the moment or what you're doing. i don't know what you think, what you want or what you hope for. i don't know what you love, what you despise, what you cherish, what you deserve. but still...
i depend on you. i have no clue why. i don't know what makes me different from all the others, or whether i'm not different at all - just a little more outgoing about it. i don't know why i can't stand it without knowing, hoping, that there is more. somewhere.
i depend on you. i depend on every little word you say, on every little move you make (and that i see), on every little thought in your head that is wasted upon me. every word of courage is remedy for my soul. every word of hope lets me clench the straw a little longer. every word of power makes me forget where i am, who i am, if only for a moment.
i depend on you. you decide how i feel. you decide how i spend my days, how i spend my nights. whether i enjoy living on this godforsaken watery rock in the middle of nowhere in a city near the arse of the universe or whether i despise every single second that doesn't want to pass. whether i fall into bed ad night with the feeling of comfort and the knowledge that something - how little and unimportant it may be - has been changed today - by me or whether i wait alone for hours for the call, the mail or the idea, the inspiration to come.
i depend on you. you decide - although you don't really seem to know, to notice. i'll treat you well if you don't ignore. i'll help you out if you tell me a story. i'll give up on you when you don't care.
i depend on you. every single day of my life. especially now that many things are falling apart. many things dissolving. many things being considered more closely than ever. some of them only then showing their errors and faults. especially now that i'm less sure of anything. now that i need more courage, more strength, more hope than ever before. than - hopefully - ever again.
i depend on you. on each and every single being out there. the way you walk, the way you smile, the way you show your arrogance, the way you talk, the way you shout, the way you say hello, the way you sneer.
it makes me feel.
make me feel good.
thank you again.
charon
i depend on you. i have no clue why. i don't know what makes me different from all the others, or whether i'm not different at all - just a little more outgoing about it. i don't know why i can't stand it without knowing, hoping, that there is more. somewhere.
i depend on you. i depend on every little word you say, on every little move you make (and that i see), on every little thought in your head that is wasted upon me. every word of courage is remedy for my soul. every word of hope lets me clench the straw a little longer. every word of power makes me forget where i am, who i am, if only for a moment.
i depend on you. you decide how i feel. you decide how i spend my days, how i spend my nights. whether i enjoy living on this godforsaken watery rock in the middle of nowhere in a city near the arse of the universe or whether i despise every single second that doesn't want to pass. whether i fall into bed ad night with the feeling of comfort and the knowledge that something - how little and unimportant it may be - has been changed today - by me or whether i wait alone for hours for the call, the mail or the idea, the inspiration to come.
i depend on you. you decide - although you don't really seem to know, to notice. i'll treat you well if you don't ignore. i'll help you out if you tell me a story. i'll give up on you when you don't care.
i depend on you. every single day of my life. especially now that many things are falling apart. many things dissolving. many things being considered more closely than ever. some of them only then showing their errors and faults. especially now that i'm less sure of anything. now that i need more courage, more strength, more hope than ever before. than - hopefully - ever again.
i depend on you. on each and every single being out there. the way you walk, the way you smile, the way you show your arrogance, the way you talk, the way you shout, the way you say hello, the way you sneer.
it makes me feel.
make me feel good.
thank you again.
charon