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[nov 06 2002, 20:20]
the smile looks so happy, so merry - but it is not true, not honest. the time it has spent where it is at the moment, the way it is at the moment seams endless - infinite. nobody seems to notice that this is just another layer among the others - among the rest that keep me from insanity. or at least try to.
the smile looks so wrong - in this situation. nobody seems to care - nobody seems to worry. you should have noticed, shouldn't you? haven't you?
the smile turns into laughter - so hollow and poor. it is starting to spread among the crowd - falsehood becoming true in other people's minds. nobody seems to bother - nobody. but you damn should. because you knew me. i told you. and you listened. at least you pretended to listen while i lay in my dark despair and told you my secrets - about my world.
but now, you turned into one of the laughers, into one of the gleeful ones that ignore reality - that ignore me.
the smile looks so pretentious - at least on me.
charon
the smile looks so wrong - in this situation. nobody seems to care - nobody seems to worry. you should have noticed, shouldn't you? haven't you?
the smile turns into laughter - so hollow and poor. it is starting to spread among the crowd - falsehood becoming true in other people's minds. nobody seems to bother - nobody. but you damn should. because you knew me. i told you. and you listened. at least you pretended to listen while i lay in my dark despair and told you my secrets - about my world.
but now, you turned into one of the laughers, into one of the gleeful ones that ignore reality - that ignore me.
the smile looks so pretentious - at least on me.
charon