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[oct 06 2002, 14:40]
i just read the newest guestbook-entry in which 'a friend' told me that it was no use complaining all day long in my diary and that i should start todo something. he even told me that it was blameful to do so.
well, okay, i don't want to make anyone angry or upset but i will have to comment on that.
point 1:
he told me that nobody got anywhere by dreaming [and writing poems, which i'll skip right now]. i don't really think that this is true. where would people be without dreaming, without hoping for something better? it is never enough to dream, that may be true, but if you really know me you can see that i am not only dreaming.
point 2:
it is correct that my diary is filled with loads of depressing thoughts and self-pity. perhaps this is not great, perhaps this is not amusing, but i suppose it's better than running around telling everyone how bad i feel and how senseless my life has become, isn't it? i don't complain a lot in real life because i am able to express all that stuff in this diary. perhaps (definitely) there will be better times somewhen and then the entries in this diary will change but at the moment they are nothing more than expressions of my thoughts that nobody really wants to hear. so i just put them online so anybody can start and stop reading whenever he/she likes and either turn off the computer thinking 'what a nerd, what an idiot' or 'hey, maybe he's right'. that's all i want.
point 3:
the sender was 'a friend' with the e-mail address 'email@email.de'... great. if you are 'a friend' why don't you tell me who you are? why don't you come over for a beer and talk to me about it? or at least send me an e-mail telling me what you think? or at least least least least write your name? i always appreciate and value (not evaluate) comments about what i do, write or say but everybody can hide in the anonymity of the internet telling me that i'm wrong.
point 4:
as i said, i don't want to make anyone angry but the last point is probably the most important one and i don't want to omit writing it just because i might step on some people's feet with it. if you did not notice until now this is a diary! it is not a usual blog with comments-feature in which people prate about funny sites on the internet. it is a diary, just readable for anyone. for those who do not know how a diary works, here's a little note about the old-fashioned one: someone gets a diary and a pen, sits down and starts writing. after some time he stops writing again, puts the pen away, probably even locks the diary and puts it back into the cupboard. that's the way it works. have you ever read your brother/mother/father/...'s diary, showed it to him, pointed to a line and said 'no, that's wrong, you're stupid'? see...
as i said, i appreciate comments and i want more. but if you identify yourself as 'a friend', you should perhaps think about what you are going to write. i really thank you for your comment [no sarcasm, really!], have thought about it and will keep on thinking about it. of course, you're right, i'm too negative at the moment. but i think it's better to write all the negative stuff down rather than not being able to get it out at all and in the end somewhen virtually explode. don't you think? [awaiting an answer!]
charon
well, okay, i don't want to make anyone angry or upset but i will have to comment on that.
point 1:
he told me that nobody got anywhere by dreaming [and writing poems, which i'll skip right now]. i don't really think that this is true. where would people be without dreaming, without hoping for something better? it is never enough to dream, that may be true, but if you really know me you can see that i am not only dreaming.
point 2:
it is correct that my diary is filled with loads of depressing thoughts and self-pity. perhaps this is not great, perhaps this is not amusing, but i suppose it's better than running around telling everyone how bad i feel and how senseless my life has become, isn't it? i don't complain a lot in real life because i am able to express all that stuff in this diary. perhaps (definitely) there will be better times somewhen and then the entries in this diary will change but at the moment they are nothing more than expressions of my thoughts that nobody really wants to hear. so i just put them online so anybody can start and stop reading whenever he/she likes and either turn off the computer thinking 'what a nerd, what an idiot' or 'hey, maybe he's right'. that's all i want.
point 3:
the sender was 'a friend' with the e-mail address 'email@email.de'... great. if you are 'a friend' why don't you tell me who you are? why don't you come over for a beer and talk to me about it? or at least send me an e-mail telling me what you think? or at least least least least write your name? i always appreciate and value (not evaluate) comments about what i do, write or say but everybody can hide in the anonymity of the internet telling me that i'm wrong.
point 4:
as i said, i don't want to make anyone angry but the last point is probably the most important one and i don't want to omit writing it just because i might step on some people's feet with it. if you did not notice until now this is a diary! it is not a usual blog with comments-feature in which people prate about funny sites on the internet. it is a diary, just readable for anyone. for those who do not know how a diary works, here's a little note about the old-fashioned one: someone gets a diary and a pen, sits down and starts writing. after some time he stops writing again, puts the pen away, probably even locks the diary and puts it back into the cupboard. that's the way it works. have you ever read your brother/mother/father/...'s diary, showed it to him, pointed to a line and said 'no, that's wrong, you're stupid'? see...
as i said, i appreciate comments and i want more. but if you identify yourself as 'a friend', you should perhaps think about what you are going to write. i really thank you for your comment [no sarcasm, really!], have thought about it and will keep on thinking about it. of course, you're right, i'm too negative at the moment. but i think it's better to write all the negative stuff down rather than not being able to get it out at all and in the end somewhen virtually explode. don't you think? [awaiting an answer!]
charon