i just can't be any different. i've got to put these lyrics in here. they represent exactly the way i feel at the moment and - let me share this with you. thanks roger...

    Wish I was too dead to cry 
    My self affliction fades 
    Stones to throw at my creator 
    Masochists to which I cater 
    
    You don't need to bother 
    I don't need to be 
    I'll keep slipping farther 
    But once I hold on 
    I won't let go 'till it bleeds 
    
    Wish I was too dead to care 
    If indeed I cared at all 
    Never had a voice to protest 
    So you fed me shit to digest 
    I wish I had a reason 
    My flaws are open season 
    For this I gave up trying 
    One good turn deserves my dying 
    
    You don't need to bother 
    I don't need to be 
    I'll keep slipping farther 
    But once I hold on 
    I won't let go 'till it bleeds 
    
    Wish I'd died instead of lived 
    A zombie hides my face 
    Shell forgotten with it's memories 
    Diarys left with cryptic entries 
    And you don't need to bother 
    I don't need to be 
    I'll keep slipping farther 
    But once I hold on...I'll never live down my deceit. 
    

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